i don't want to be old

i don't want to be old. today my great grandma had her 94th birthday party. we think it might be her last one. she has been going to the hospital and now is at St. Johns nursing home. you know when you get old and you forget things and don't really know what is going on. for example, today we gave her flowers and told her it was from us and when we came back and she said," look at these beautiful flowers, who did i get these from?" or when she can't remember my name. i just really don't want to get like that and not know whats going on. i just want to be like Peter Pan and be young forever. or you walk around and look at the rooms and see them just sit there and watch TV or sit and look at the world go by. i just really don't want to be like that. but the other outcome wouldn't be good eaither dying youg. i just hope i have family and friends that will always be there for me:)