am i losing my best friend?

since i was about a month and a half i've been best buds with anna. our parents were friends so we were always together. we went to the same daycare, elementary school and we lived across the street from each other. in kindergarten we would tell people that we were sisters. i remember during the summers we would spend weeks together playing house and playing barbies. we could finish each others sentences. i called her mom my 2ND mom. i didn't even bother ringing the doorbell...i was part of the family. nothing was holding us back. then she moved.... (she still lived in the same town, but she was out in the country) then we started making new friends....then we were busy with different sports....then boys....then we don't have the same classes. Now i see anna at lunch and that's it. the last time we hung out was August. it's now the end of October. we used to tell each other everything, now she has a boyfriend and she didn't tell me until a week later at the lunch table with everyone else. if i got a boyfriend i would call her up the second it happened. are we really starting to go our separate ways? we used to talk about our weddings and how we would be each others maid of honor and getting old and still lived right by each other. now we don't even talk like we used too. it's ripping my heart to even think about losing anna. i feel almost in a daze and not comprehending this. last night i had a talk with my mom about this and she told me that maybe we are going our different ways. but we can't be!! i need anna, she's my best friend, the one person who didn't judge me. am i losing her?

What's the big talk about?

I've just started the New Moon book. It's the second book of the Twilight series. These books are so amazing! I don't really like to read much, but I can't put these books down. Everyone i talk to is so in love with these books. i think its going to be the next harry potter. it's that good:) now i can't even wait till the movie comes out. the previews just leave you wanting more. the cast is so gorgeous. the male actors could be gods. flawless. I'm already 300 some pages in and I'm so captivated in it. i feel like a nerd sometimes when all i want to do is sit and read these books. it's all i think about now. i think I'm obsessed. the only thing that stinks is when the movie comes out on Nov. 21st, i have state swimming that same weekend and i don't think our coaches are big fans:) oh well maybe everyone will persuade them.

I HATE BRACES!!!

I hate braces! I've had braces now for about a year and a half and i now that it's not as long as some people but they are driving me crazy! Now i have to wear rubber bands and i feal even more selfconscience about them. they susposed to straightin your teeth and make them perfect but at what cost? When you first get them on and when you smile all you see is metal face. or when you eat and the food gets all stuck in them and you feel so totally dumb. the pain they have, it feels like your teeth are getting ripped out of your month. when people want braces on, i just want to slap them across the face and say"are you dumb! i would gladly trade with you!" hopefully i get mine off soon and then move away world, hear comes Amy!! :)

i don't want to be old

i don't want to be old. today my great grandma had her 94th birthday party. we think it might be her last one. she has been going to the hospital and now is at St. Johns nursing home. you know when you get old and you forget things and don't really know what is going on. for example, today we gave her flowers and told her it was from us and when we came back and she said," look at these beautiful flowers, who did i get these from?" or when she can't remember my name. i just really don't want to get like that and not know whats going on. i just want to be like Peter Pan and be young forever. or you walk around and look at the rooms and see them just sit there and watch TV or sit and look at the world go by. i just really don't want to be like that. but the other outcome wouldn't be good eaither dying youg. i just hope i have family and friends that will always be there for me:)

Love

love. What is the true meaning of love? The dictionary says its a strong liking for, but what does it mean? You can't see love only feel it. How do you know your hearts have connected as one? My neighbors just got married tonight and they are so nice and it got me thinking about finding your true love. How do you know you found it? There's like billions of people in the world and supposed to find your one and only love? don't get me wrong i want to find my soul mate, like in those romance movies, but today in society the divorce rate has gone up. i really don't want to be apart of those statistics but i don't know whats in my future. what i really want is to have a relationship like my parents. they have been married for 25 years and are still going strong. but you meet some people who have been married 3 or more times and you think"wow, maybe they shouldn't get married anymore". or at Las Vegas and doing the whole Elvis thing.... that's really going to last. so hopefully i get lucky and meet my someone special and never have to do the whole legal thing.

Big news in a small town

Today I went to the Extreme Makeover site and the house is coming along. The family is nice as i've been told. Derick is in my grade, but I really don't know him. I've been standing out there for about 4 1/2 hours. It was so worth it, I got to meet Paul and wave at Traci and Edward. Hopefully meet Ty too:)This is big news for a little town of Albert Lea/Hayward. On Tuesday I'm going to watch them "Move that bus" and we are leaving early so we can get a good spot. The whole town will probably be there. Hope you had a good weekened.